And as the cold winter wind becomes nothing more than a chilling memory, the flowers begin to bloom signalling the start of Spring. Whilst I am very happy that those dull winter mornings are behind us for this year, I can't help but find myself wishing for the summer sun already. Now anybody that knows me well will tell you that during the wintertime I am the monochrome Queen. For some reason from October through February my outfits are reflective of those dull, grey days. It's very rare that you'll see me sporting any colour. But this week the Sun has been out in full force - providing the perfect opportunity to throw a little colour into the mix. 

                     Floral shirt - Brand by Topshop // Jeans - Topshop // Shoes - ASOS // Bag - Topshop // Choker - ASOS // Sunglasses - Vintage //

I'm very sorry that this outfit post is not top notch quality, but I just wanted to post something on the ol' blog and get myself into the swing of things. I realised the other day whilst talking to a friend just how much joy this little blog has bought me over the years. It's been something for me to focus on when I've felt a little lost in life. There's no feeling quite like finally publishing that post you've spent hours fussing over, and receiving positive comments! I really miss the sense of purpose and achievement I once gained from my little corner of the internet. It may sound silly, but I want to invest more time and energy into my blog as a sort of thank you for finding me when I felt so lost.  

Unfortunately over Christmas I made the excruciatingly difficult decision to drop out of one of the world's best fashion universities. This decision left me with a major "I am not worthy" complex. For months I haven't been able to pick up a magazine, scroll down, TBoF or even watch Fashion Police.... just because I felt like I was no longer allowed to be a part of the elitist fashion world. 

I now realise that this is a silly idea. The truth is that I dropped out of university because of crippling anxiety. When you reach the stage where you are unable to leave your dorm room for fear of dropping dead... you know you might have some issues you want to address. Admittedly, having anxiety and moving to the centre of London without knowing a soul wasn't my smartest move. I guess I just expected things would work themselves out and unfortunately they didn't. 

Four months later and It's starting to occur to me that I dropped out because of my anxiety, not because I was bad at what I was doing at all! I'm glad to say the "I am not worthy" complex has come to an abrupt end! That means that *fingers crossed* I am back and ready to blog! I have a couple of OOTD's I'd like to shoot next week and an updated What's in my makeup bag. I've never written a post about dealing with my anxiety before because I'm not sure that I handle it so well... however if anyone would like a post explaining some calming techniques or a what I keep in my Panic Pack i'd be more than willing to write up a post for you all.

Did anyone else start university this year? How have you/are you finding it? 
I hope you're all well 

with love


1 comment

  1. the shirt is so cute! so happy that it's almost summer :)

    danielle | avec danielle


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